29th October 1944 - Edinburgh

Sunday
Breakfast in bed again. Lay in bed until after 11.  Heard the band of the Home Guards as they marched to inspection on the Meadows.

Spent most of the day writing, and completed two episodes of a proposed “play” on the Observer Post, although the thing could not possibly be presented on a stage.  It does however lend itself particularly well to being written in the form of dialogue and descriptive matter in between.

Had supper alone with Dora Biggam tonight, while Ethel went off to her old dragon of a sister at the Braids.  Could not bring myself to any serious talk, so we listened to the radio instead, although reception was poor.

28th October 1944 - Edinburgh

Saturday
Glorious morning.  Felt very much better, head clear, legs firmer.  Had breakfast in bed and read “Our Mutual Friend” – never read it before.  Who can now compare even faintly with Dickens?

Fine, brilliant moon tonight.  What time will the divers come in over Essex?

27th October 1944 - Edinburgh

Friday
Woke about 8 and was given delicious breakfast in bed.  Brilliant sunny day.  No mention today in press or radio about divers, but our glorious premier has spoken again and given us a thoroughly gloomy view of the war, which may now become “unbearably protracted”.  Wonder how much more the British public will really stand?  Much talk about solidarity of allies which clearly shows that there have been very serious troubles.  Assurances that there are now no differences between Britain and Russia presumably means that the differences are great.  If Germany can hold out 6 months, may yet win the war.  By next February the automatic devices to bombard the British Isles will be so numerous and efficient that all normal life must cease.  It does not seem to occur to anybody that the diver business will increase during this winter, not decrease.  Can't understand why they have not already begun to send them against other cities besides London.

Felt better today, but not well.  Stayed in bed until 4, then up, washed, had tea and went to Dr’s.  Unfortunately, Lamont was out, but saw the other man, and felt an awful fool.  Stammered badly and generally behaved like a lunatic.  Told me to come back tomorrow and see Lamont, who will give me a letter for Rowland.  Felt a little better when I left.  Perhaps after all these years I must really begin to take medical advice seriously.  But how I hate going to see doctors at all.

Walked back down the Links as the huge moon rose up behind Arthur’s Seat.  Tonight reading – Robert Louis Stevenson – short stories.  Found a book in the house called “The Happy Traveller” by a Revd Tatchell of Midhurst, pub in 1923, a sort of naïve guide to the whole world.  It contains this gem under Jamaica, (considering that it is written by a parson) – “Being by nature superstitious and in great dread of Duppres or ghosts, they have taken kindly to religion; and if you listen to a street preacher or go to a meeting house on a Sunday, you will be amused at their pomposity and capacity for silly chatter.”  What a delightful servant of Christ.


Under Russia he says: “No one will want to go to Russia until the spectre of Bolshevism is laid and the great country returns to its senses and settles down.”

26th October 1944 - Edinburgh

Thursday
Foggy and damp.  Amused myself watching the golfers on the links, a railway parcel van drive up and the horse cross the road to eat grass, then later a pantechnicon came to the ground floor flat in the next block and a lot of furniture went away.  In the afternoon I saw a funeral coming down a road on the opposite side of the links, a motor hearse and a white surpliced choir following behind.

Just before supper an abominable feeling of encroaching darkness came over me.  All life seemed to drain out of my body, and sharp pains set up in my thighs.  For a moment the room seemed dark, but soon became lighter again.  As soon as I was alone, I tried everything, shaking head, putting head down, etc to get rid of the weakness but no good.  Had bowl of broth, but still no better.  Made an excuse to go outside to see if it was raining, but even the cool damp night air brought no relief.

Crawled back up to the flat and confessed I could eat no more and would have to lie down.  They took it splendidly – put one to bed and made no bones about it.  Was thankful to be in the soft warm bed again, but felt strongly the awful embarrassment – to feel really ill in someone else’s house.


Determined to see Dr. Lamont tomorrow.  Heard Miss P. come in to talk about my discovery in the Links business and then fell asleep, listening to the howling of the wind and the beat of rain.

25th October 1944 - Edinburgh

Wednesday
Up 8.30, splendid peaceful night without a dream.  Sudden realisation that I have been here another week and have been away from Colchester for 31 days.  Must undoubtedly give up job.  

Thick damp foggy morning, but papers say more divers over last night. They are now sending them all over Belgium as well, and the Americans I suppose will want to send them out from this country sooner or later.

Went to Library, read the London Times, Irish Times, Scotsman, Yorkshire and Newcastle papers, trying to pick up scraps about divers, but the reports are identical in every paper.

This afternoon went down to the Register Office for Miss Biggam about the Bruntsfield Links business.  Discovered that under Edinburgh Improvement Act, 1827 and another of 1831 neither the Links nor the Meadows can ever be built upon.  But when I reported this interesting discovery the only comment was that if the Corporation wished to build they would most certainly do so, Act or no Act!  What a delicious comment on the glorious democratic Government.

The officer at the Register Office, when I was talking to him, said that of course either of these Acts could be repealed – “in fact, any act can be repealed, even the Act of Union!”

Back to Library after that, and then to Theatre to see Iolanthe, gallery seat again.  When I heard the opening chorus I shut my eyes and was back in the School Hall again, 14 years old, hearing Gilbert & Sullivan for the first time.

Where are now all the boys who played in that show?  How many are dead?  The only name I can think of is Jumbo Joscelyn, who made a great stir as “Private Willis” and he’s at Writtle.

The show was enjoyable, but a lot of the music seemed to be played too slow, but the costumes were a delight and the Lord Chancellor a dream.  In the second act, there was great applause as soon as the curtain rose to reveal Private Willis in his sentry box, and at each mock-heroic reference in the songs there were little outbursts of clapping from various parts of the house.

Came out into damp, misty streets, no sign of the moon.  To bed, full of misery and anxiety.  Shall have to cycle a good way home, as have not sufficient money for full fare.

Two unfortunate errors today – a man stopped me outside the Library, a dirty little old man, carrying a parcel, and I understood him to say “Do ye ken the City o’ Glasgo?”  I stared at him and he seemed to repeat his remark, so I said very slowly “No, but perhaps they could tell you in the Library,” indicating the place, “I daresay they have a map in there.”  He gaped at me a moment, muttered something of which I caught only the words “bluidy fule” and walked away.  A man standing near me grinned, so I said “Well, he doesn’t seem to be very pleased with himself”  The man laughed and said “Nay, he’s wild because you make sich a game of him”  I replied “I certainly don’t mean to do any such thing.  How can I be expected to know all about Glasgow?”
"Glasgow? Och, you never heard what he said.  It was the City Glass Company he was asking for."

A few minutes later I went into a shop and bought some writing paper, and the girls seemed to say “Do you wash on Saturday?”  It was only after several repetitions that I made out the question as “Do you wish envelopes as well?”

Had tea in a cinema café in the Lothian Road, the grey afternoon fading outside and the long processions of horses going home to the Railways yards at the Caledonian Station.  Their great hooves ringing on the cobbles.

Pretty girls coming in to tea with soldiers and airmen, and pipe music from the radio.

Got hold of 2 very good things today – book of short stories by Cunninghame Graham, which are superb.  Never read any before, but must now get a lot.  The other is the last volume of Hodson’s War Diary, 1942-3, called ‘Home Front’.  Excellent reporting.  Must get the other 4 vols.


The purchase of these has left me with £3.12.6, and the fare home is nearly £5.

24th October 1944 - Edinburgh

Tuesday
Fine, cold autumn morning with blue mist full of seagulls rising, falling.  The flat is so high that you get a grand view right across the grass, marked off into odd shapes by narrow ashphalt paths, with figures of golfers or of passers by hurrying under umbrellas, dogs running and playing, right over to the Braid Hills and the blue distant hills far beyond that.

Above there is the sound of music and fiddle, from the apartment of the music teacher.  Often the dull boom of a door slamming and the sound of hurrying footsteps on the stone stairs and then down the dark stone passage below.  There are 6 flats in this block, all occupied by amusing characters. 

To the Library for an hour this afternoon, reading papers.  The war news seems gloomy, and still divers coming in every night.  Not a word from Colchester so suppose all is fairly well.


Tonight had a haggis for supper, first I have ever tasted.  Delicious.  Drink far too much tea here.

23rd October 1944 - Edinburgh

Monday
Lovely morning, sunny but cool.  Pale blue mists across the Links, Braid Hills a darker blue in the distance.  Saw in 'The Scotsman' that a plane crashed last night at Haddington, 10 miles away, probably the one I heard.  House destroyed and some relatives of Earl Haig killed.

Wrote to Father again.  Suppose he must be alright as I have not heard a word from him.  Went to Library for an hour, and to Grant’s.  Bought Bloomfield’s Poems in 2 vols. Beautiful copy, for 1/.  

This afternoon, reading and writing.  Had tea in the flat, looking out over the links.  Lights appearing in the great school up the hill, and boys and girls going home in the misty dusk.  Sound of horses hooves on the stone sets.

Decided to go to the Mikado by the D’Oyly Carte Co. No seats left, so had to wait in queue.  Darkness falling, lights coming on, trams going by packed with work people, and old “busker” singing “Drink to me only” in a hoarse dirgelike voice.  Got a good seat in 2nd row of gallery.  Place seemed to be very largely filled by young girls, mostly very pretty, chattering in soft, Scottish voices.  At last the orchestra came in and tuned up.  Then they swung into the first bars of the music, and all the little girls with their pretty hair and shining eager little eyes leaned forward entranced, never thinking I suppose that their grandmothers were just as entranced 60 years ago.

About 1890 this opera was taken off in London on the occasion of the Mikado’s visit, as it was regarded as an insult to Japan.  In 1941 it was again more or less banned as showing Japan in a pleasant or facetious manner.  Now apparently it is to be regarded merely as a piece of play acting and music.  I enjoyed it immensely, all the old tunes, the old songs.  The dresses and settings were changed a few years ago, and are certainly very gorgeous.  Some of the acting did not seem to me to be as good as I should have expected from the D’Oyly Carte Co. themselves but of course it is difficult to make so old a play go with a swing, with its feeble late Victorian jokes (although everyone laughed at them most dutifully).  “The Flowers that Bloom in the Spring” was encored enthusiastically, and I think “Tit Willow” could easily have been as well.  What delightful tunes these are.  Made me think of the old days at school, when we did this show at Easter.  The “Mikado” was Darrell Fancourt, very good, and Grahame Clifford did Ko-Ko in such a clowning manner that I should expect the people who regard G&S as a religion rather than an entertainment to be disgusted.  The orchestra played some numbers a little slowly, and were just inclined to be a bit “brassy” but it was all a delight to me. 

Came out into the cold starlit night.  Nice supper, friendly chatter.  Money is now becoming short, in fact I have not got enough to pay my fare home.  Thinking about cycling as far as Hadrian’s Wall.


About 11 o’clock heard 2 fire engines rushing by towards Marchmont.  While in the cafe, five ATS came up, with an ATS Officer.  She seemed to be on very good terms with the girls.  They all spoke with Yorkshire or Lancashire accents, and the officer with the usual English “cultured” accent.  They were talking about service abroad, and the officer said “Well, the only reason I’m not keen to go is that as soon as I go out my husband will be coming home.”  A pleasant piece of optimism.  Shortly after a Major came up, and greeted the officer in a very affable manner.  He attached himself to the party, and finally paid for them all.